Do you ever really know the person you’re dating?

LENNON

I lived, but I’m not really living.

The world knows me as the girl on the front page of every newspaper—a photo taken after I survived something you only see in horror films. What they don't realize is that no matter how much time passes, I’m still in that room, stifling my screams, wondering if he’s going to hurt me next. 

I walk through the world trapped in the dark, afraid of everything and everyone, even my own body. But the series of events that led up to that night might be the darkest thing of all. 

And the secret no one knows, the one that haunts me, is that it’s all my fault.

So, I plaster on a fake smile and deal with the harsh judgments and intrusive questions, while I wonder why I survived the worst night of my life only to end up surrounded by people, yet completely alone.

Can you ever really escape your past?

DANIEL

Eight long years.

I’ve seen it all—the crying, nightmares, self-loathing, and aching sadness.

There is nowhere Lennon could go that I wouldn't find her, watch her, or take care of her. She is the most important person in my life. She just doesn’t know it.

And I intend to keep it that way, because I’m responsible for the worst thing that ever happened to her. To make amends, I had to become someone new, even if that meant becoming worse than what hurt her.

So, I work tirelessly behind the scenes, curating a world where she’s safe and has what she needs, even if that means I don't have her. That is, until one night, a collision changes everything.

PLEASE NOTE:

Collision: Book 1 in the Watchers Trilogy is a dark romantic suspense. While the romance is a stand-alone and HEA, the plot is part of an interconnected series.

It is suitable for ages 18+.

This is a work of fiction. This book is not an instruction manual for relationship dynamics or healing. It tells one story of two flawed human beings doing the best they can with the information they have as they crawl through the depths of hell and take turns pulling each other toward the light.

They are deeply traumatized.

They make big mistakes.

They are supposed to.

The whole point of the EVERLYVERSE is that these characters are loved for who they are, in their wholeness, as they navigate complex trauma, and they don’t have to be perfect or earn it. This universe is built on compassion, healing, connection, redemption, and forgiveness.

This book is an exploration of complex trauma, and it deals with discussions and on-page descriptions, ranging from brief to extensive, of difficult and potentially upsetting topics, including but not limited to: 

Abortion, Anxiety, Child abuse, Compulsive sexual behavior, Depression, Distribution of explicit content without consent,  Drugging, Graphic violence, Hanging, Home invasion, Human Trafficking, Kidnapping, Molestation, Murder, Mutilation, Physical abuse, Post-traumatic stress disorder, Rape, Sexual abuse, Sexual assault, Sodomy, Stalking, Substance use disorder, Suffocation, Suicide, and Torture

Collision Spotify Playlist by Chapter

Chapter 1 Tyler by Toadies

Chapter 2 Because I’m Me by The Avalanches

Chapter 3 Lil’ Red Riding Hood by Sam The Sham & The Pharaohs

Chapter 4 Just Pretend by Bad Omens

Chapter 5 About You by The 1975

Chapter 6 Ladies and gentlemen we are floating in space by Spiritualized 

Chapter 7 Thinking About You by Radiohead

Chapter 8 Runaway by Kanye West

Chapter 9 Possum Kingdom by Toadies 

Chapter 10 Only Son of the Ladiesman by Father John Misty

Chapter 11 Orbiter by Noah Kahan

Chapter 12 Fool’s Gold by The Main Street Gospel

Chapter 13 Gateway by Joey Carper

Chapter 14 Here Comes My Girl by Tom Petty

Chapter 15 Brutally by Suki Waterhouse

Chapter 16 Thirteen by Big Star

Chapter 17 Objects Objects by Deptford Goth

Chapter 18 Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby by Cigarettes After Sex

Chapter 19 The First Time by U2

Chapter 20 Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want by Deftones

Chapter 21 Haunted by Shane MacGowan & The Popes

Chapter 22 Closer by Nine Inch Nails

Chapter 23 How to disappear by Lana Del Rey

Chapter 24 I Need My Girl by The National

Chapter 25 My Full Name by Madison Cunningham

Chapter 26 The Night We Met by Lord Huron 

Chapter 27 Happiness is a butterfly by Lana Del Rey 

Chapter 28 After Dark by Mr. Kitty 

Chapter 29 Good For You by Selena Gomez and A$AP Rocky

Chapter 30 Bathroom by Montell Fish 

Chapter 31 Mother by Danzig

Chapter 32 Have You Fallen Out of Love? By Paul Dempsey

Chapter 33 True Love Way by Kings of Leon

Chapter 34 16, Maybe Less by Calexico, Iron & Wine

Chapter 35 Babyface by U2

Chapter 36 Can We Pretend That We’re Good? By Daniel Seavey

Chapter 37 Strangers by The Kinks

Chapter 38 Tryin’ To Throw Your Arms Around The World by U2

Chapter 39 You by Petit Biscuit

Chapter 40 Waiting Room by Fugazi

Chapter 41 Without U by Beach Goons

Chapter 42 Hymn to Virgil by Hozier

Chapter 43 The Temptation of Adam by Josh Ritter

Chapter 44 Silence by Marshmello, Khalid 

Chapter 45 Graveyard by Halsey

Chapter 46 Meet you at the Graveyard by Cleffy

Chapter 47 Maps by Lyrah

Chapter 48 Kids In The Dark by Bat For Lashes

Chapter 49 Ultra Violet (Light My Way) by U2

Chapter 50 Mystery Man by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers